segue

I'm requesting another reboot. It's hard to take. Need to veer off this course.

At least, it feels that way. I don't know what to do about it, since I really feel like doing nothing.

Just. Kill. Me. Now.

Almost every day I am belittled, put down, thought of as useless. It's a struggle to get up out of that. Then, I'm put back down. There are few ways to get that negativity away, and most of it I don't like.

I just watched, perhaps an hour ago, the most beautiful, amazing woman leave.

I thought "American Splendor" would've been the right kind of depressed, but it's not.

Hate being alone

It is painful

In a bad place emotionally, again.

truly horrible night